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A couple of years ago I was more or less a beta. I had a few relationships but they were mainly centered around pleasing a woman as much as possible with gifts in exchange for sex. I saw nothing wrong with feminism in its current form. I also tried very hard to make people like me, at the cost of not being true to myself. If someone didn't like me I would try explain my actions to them and try to meet them halfway. If someone was offended by my actions I would apologize and then tip toe around that person.

One day I got a huge bonus at work. For a while I was thinking about going on a trip or spending it on my girlfriend. But in the end I spent most of it on gear; Dbol and Test-E. My rational was I was always tired at work and test would help me be more energetic. Also it would help me push past my platues.

Gear ended up changing my Personality

There is a lot of talk about what it means to be an alpha male or a high test male. And you think you know what it means. However the only way to realy know is to add test into your system.

The first thing I noticed is I had more energy. I was more awake. A fog was lifted. I needed less sleep to feel rested. I had a bigger appetite. I moved more quickly and with purpose. And with all that extra energy I felt like I could accomplish much more.

However there was a problem. I was energetic and more productive. But everyone still moved at their old slow pace. I wanted to do things I wanted to try things, I was more prone to taking risks and being impulsive. But everyone else was still their old slow selves: Hesitant, risk-averse, boring. I wanted to have deep conversations, question common wisdom. No one wanted to have a conversation if it wasn't 100% politically correct. I grew bored with talking to most people. Those conversations felt boring and scripted.

My sense of self worth grew. I felt like a god. I saw myself as truly better than the slow masses, who were to afraid of new experiences. My relationship with my girlfriend changed. I wouldn't argue with her anymore. If she didn't like something about my personality than she could leave because there was a line of sluts waiting for me.

Women picked up on my confidence. I no longer had approach anxiety. I would walk up to girls because I was bored and I saw them as a source of entertainment. I would start stupid conversations with women just to be entertained by their reactions:

Hey are you the girl from Craigs list?* NO!* I was supposed to meet a girl who looks just like you, 50 dollars right? Ew No do I look like a prostitute men are such pigs! Fuck You! Oh im sory I was trying to buy a textbook and the girl said she was blond at about your height. Girl feels terrible starts apologizing. I get infinite lols maybe a phone number.

When I came of my cycle. I no longer had the same feeling of superiority. However the behavior patterns that I developed while being a high test stayed with me. Being an Alpha felt realy good, and there is no way I was willing to ever go back.


Suprizle, /r/TheRedPill 12 Comments [5/17/2017 2:10:46 PM]
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Liz_7

So you bought steroids and chemically induced a testosterone rush that no body produces naturally.

To paraphrase Robin Williams (rest in peace):

Two things happen on steroids; your balls shrink and your head grows. You are stepping up to the plate with a Mardi Gras head and raisinettes.

5/17/2017 8:44:53 PM

fromdownunder

Straight out of a Simpsons episode - the one where he had a crayon removed from his brain.

The only difference between you and Homer is that he actually had a brain.

Norm


5/17/2017 10:30:40 PM

AnonAtheist

Beause shunken balls are a small price to pay!

5/17/2017 11:18:32 PM

Bimaac

The red pill's "field reports" are some of the greatest creative fiction on the Web.

TweRPs are just "incels" who are lying about how often they're getting laid.

5/18/2017 5:41:34 AM

Azereaux

Yes, roid nuts often have this weird sense of superiority. You didn't temporarily become an "alpha", you turned into a hormonally induced douchebag.

Take it from someone that has issues with brain chemistry: the rush of a high is not some major revelation about who you are or the world around you. It's just a transitory phase, and does not have any great insights to bring. Hell, your artificially induced high likely didn't even boost your creativity.

Lay off the roids and the red pill sites.

5/18/2017 6:02:38 AM

Musicalbookworm

Ok, you've done it. The librarian is afraid to google. What the hell is dbol and teste?

5/18/2017 6:18:19 AM

Pharaoh Bastethotep



I had a few relationships but they were mainly centered around pleasing a woman as much as possible with gifts in exchange for sex.

I don't get that selfish sexuality. [Possibly TMI/awkward descriptions warning] Yes, I will not deny that I want my penis to enjoy it, but stronger yet is the desire to touch her tenderly, to cuddle and carress her, to go down on her, to drive her wild with pleasure. I WANT to please my woman (well, of course, I have to find her first..),


PS;
Something I've noticed:
I did not expect bikinis to be around in Charles Atlas's time (well, yes, I knew they existed back in Rome, but I think you know what I mean), yet it seems all the girls in the beach version wear them, and in this one, she even goes to a fair in nothing but a bra+miniskirt combo. So much for the "good old days" when women dressed "modestly".
Maybe, we should send these cartoons to DJ Stupid.

5/18/2017 6:45:08 AM

Liz_7

@musicalbookworm

They're steroids. I'm unsure of which class they belong to but OP was clearly using them for a testosterone boost.

5/18/2017 1:16:54 PM

Niam

Speaking as a fitness nut, I know some of the terminology this guy is using. And I've seen it for myself that going on a Testosterone drug - even doing it right such that you don't get the shrunken balls side effect - results in a hormone rush that kinda turns you into a different person.

Dbol is probably Androxybol, a dynamic mass gainer which ties that in with testosterone boosts.

I don't know what Test-E is, exactly, but there are a number of candidates for that abbreviation and all of them are high order testosterone boosters.

When you go on those kinds of drugs, the chemical interactions in your brain make you 1) horny all the time 2) super-aggressive 3) emotionally volatile. This is all a recipe for someone to find their way to sites like r/ Redpill and get impressionable and dumb incels to try steroids and intense exercise and in the process create basically a version of the Pain and Gain movie's cast.

Using that kind of stuff can either mess your body up really bad if you do it wrong, or muscle you up and in the process drastically and sometimes permanently change who you are.

tl;dr: most drugs are scary but you come down from a high. With steroids, you...don't. They change you.

5/18/2017 11:44:09 PM

The Crimson Ghost

So he's encouraging roid rage?

The world can always use another Chris Benoit.

5/19/2017 10:11:09 AM

Doubting Thomas

So basically you took a bunch of steroids and became an even bigger jerk than normal. Gotcha.

5/19/2017 11:24:46 AM

Niam

One last thing - for those who despise themselves, the personality warping effect of steroids is only a positive. That is one thing crucial to understand in those who seek roids to change who and what they are.

5/19/2017 1:31:37 PM

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